Feeling overwhelmed… Where to from here?

Today was the perfect example of how listening to your body and nervous system and acting accordingly can serve to re-regulate and change the whole outcome of the day.

Like many other mornings, today the alarm went off at 5am, and I was up showering, getting ready, drinking my greens & creatine, and heading to the gym. Only today on the drive I had the overwhelming feeling of ‘I don’t want to do this today.’ Despite this feeling, I continued to push through, only unlike other days where the workout usually pulls me out of this mindset, the overwhelm & anxious feeling only worsened the more I trained. With an upcoming end-of-year fitness photoshoot looming, the ego (subconscious mind) is in full swing, feeding me stories of “you can’t do this, you’ve hardly prepped,” “you’re not worthy of this,” “you should quit now before you get embarrassed,”... The story was playing so hard, and the overwhelm was building so much, I quite literally had to stop mid-workout, shut my eyes, and breathe (4-4-8, 4-4-8, 4-4-8 on repeat) until I could calm myself enough to ask, ‘What do you need right now?’and the immediate reply was ‘to go home.’

So that's what I did. Left my workout mid-session & came home, fed my puppa’s, made a coffee, and just sat and let my body do the rest until I felt regulated again—which only took 15 minutes once I started listening.

Knowing that this is utter BS and that this ‘story’ is nothing but my ego trying to ‘keep me safe/stay the same,’ I sat down to write this blog, to process in real time why this is coming up now.

If you attended my 11:11 Portal Masterclass, you would’ve heard me speak about Tony Robbins' belief that there are only two core beliefs: unloved or unworthy, and all beliefs, limitations, etc., can be categorised under either one. So, I sat with the following questions:

Am I feeling unloved or unworthy?

My answer: unworthy.

Where am I feeling this in my body?

My answer: my upper stomach (solar plexus) & my heart space.

What does the feeling feel like in my body?

Stomach energy feels stuck, like a burp that won't come out, and heart space feels heavy, dense, and weighed down.

Why am I feeling unworthy?

My answers: self-sabotaged, underprepared, past hurt, past experience, shame, regret, fear, fear of not being good enough compared to others, feeling like a fraud, imposter syndrome.

As I was feeling into this answer and digging deeper, I noticed the feeling moving from my stomach and heart space into my throat like an opening, a burning sensation that needed to be released—so I did just that.

I sat and listened to what my body needed.

I hummed, moaned, growled, sighed, and arghhhh’d, making whatever noise I needed to shift the stuck energy, further channeling light language and Reiki to clear, heal, and align my energy back to a state of balance and calm. I then performed a brief Theta session on myself, going up to The Creator of All That Is and commanding that the programs of self-sabotage, underpreparedness, past hurt, past experience, shame, regret, fear, fear of not being good enough compared to others, feeling like a fraud, and imposter syndrome be removed and replaced with the opposite. Once complete, I self enquired again...

How am I feeling now?

My answer: lighter, less unstable, and more calm.

Do the same feelings remain in my stomach, heart space, and throat?

My answer: just a tiny bit in my throat, nothing anywhere else. I further hummed and argghhh’d until that settled.

Do I still carry the same feelings associated with unworthiness?

My answer: NO.

Fantastic! I can carry on with my day as I planned and not let this ego mind infiltrate any more valuable time or space.

While this may seem like a bit of a process, it is a process that I have rinsed, repeated, and refined SO MUCH overtime that it honestly is now like second nature. From start to finish (with life in between), it took me approximately 3.5 hours to complete. Yet I am ever so grateful to have the skills, tools, knowledge, resources, awareness, and determination to be aware of and sit with the uncomfortable feelings, enquire with self and listen to what I needed, and action exactly what it was I needed in the moment to bring myself back to baseline. It is truly INVALUABLE.

So this beautiful soul is the perfect example of how listening to your body & nervous system and acting accordingly can serve to re-regulate & change the whole outcome of the day.

If you’ve had similar experiences, would love a healing, or want to learn more about these processes I use in times like this, feel free to book a 1:1 Healing, Transformation Discovery Call, or sign up for one of my Mentorship programs and I can work alongside you on your journey into your becoming.

Much love,